Have you been putting yourself in a box? Struggling with self-expression ? I've been there! As your host, I'll take you on a journey of my own self-rediscovery and liberation, unveiling the raw, unfiltered truth behind my transformation. Fighting off the fear of being perceived, misunderstood, and the pressures of fitting societal norms, I've learned to celebrate my unique self, and I can't wait to share my insights with you.
Brace yourself for a deep dive into duality as we journey through our second chapter. From my soft, sweet side to the fiery, strong persona, I'm learning to balance and embrace all aspects of my personality. Let's break boundaries and redefine our sacred self expression together, one affirmation at a time!
Have you been putting yourself in a box? Struggling with self-expression ? I've been there! As your host, I'll take you on a journey of my own self-rediscovery and liberation, unveiling the raw, unfiltered truth behind my transformation. Fighting off the fear of being perceived, misunderstood, and the pressures of fitting societal norms, I've learned to celebrate my unique self, and I can't wait to share my insights with you.
Brace yourself for a deep dive into duality as we journey through our second chapter. From my soft, sweet side to the fiery, strong persona, I'm learning to balance and embrace all aspects of my personality. Let's break boundaries and redefine our sacred self expression together, one affirmation at a time!
Hello, my beautiful babies. I'm your host, tiana Thompson, and this is Affirmations of a Bad Bitch. My cup is overflowing today. I have been the self-care queen lately, although I am getting some acne on my chin. I get on TikTok and I see this girl talking about how she's getting acne on her chin and it looks just like mine. It's from Almond Milk. Guess who's been using Almond Milk creamer in her coffee? So naturally, tonight I will be spending at least 20 minutes on Google looking up everything there is to know about the link between Almond Milk and acne. I need the facts. I always have a craving for information, thank you, but I have been feeling pretty good lately.
Speaker 1:I am at a pivotal point of self-exploration and self-expression. I had an epiphany and I realized that I've kind of just been putting myself in a box and holding myself to these standards that I'm not living up to, and then I'm disappointed in myself and it's like Tiana Bitch, what are you doing? Why are you putting so much pressure on yourself to be inspirational when you can just be yourself? Because that's what's relatable and therefore more inspiring, because if I can get my shit together, you can get your shit together. But really I have put so much pressure on myself to be a good, wholesome, genuine person without taking into consideration I was already that. Let me tell you something Bad people don't sit around worrying about if they're bad people because they don't care. If you care enough to wonder or to worry about other people's perception of your heart, that's proven enough that you have nothing to worry about. And I don't even like the idea of good versus bad. Nothing is inherently good or bad, but you guys know what I'm saying. People who just spend their time making other people miserable because they themselves are miserable and I realize that they are miserable because they are hurt and hurt. People will hurt other people and maybe they don't even realize that there are more ways for things to be perceived. They aren't even aware of it. They don't have the capacity to take accountability. So, yes, be kind, but also, it's not a responsibility to change their perception of you or of the other people. Your responsibility is to show up as you are. The right people will love you and the parts of you that you maybe don't even like about yourself.
Speaker 1:I have struggled so fucking much with my self expression. It's just so hard for me to even allow myself to be perceived at all by other people. Like what do you mean? You know what I look like, you know that I exist? That's embarrassing, please. Like don't look at me, don't think about me, don't have any preconceived ideas about the way that I act, my personality, I don't know. You're probably wrong. Anyway, that's my issue Is being seen and then being misunderstood or misjudged, but that's something I am working on. It's just crazy realizing, oh, maybe I'm not as open as I thought I was. I do have walls up, like I really am a little closed off and I didn't think that I was. And if I'm not open to judgment, I guess I'm probably not super open to the love that I could be receiving either. I might be a little afraid of that. I've been spending so much time this past year working on myself, just reflecting and focusing on the things that I want to change or improve about myself, that I completely isolated and honestly just forgot who the fuck I am. I am so grateful for the time I've spent getting to know myself. The 180 I have done when it comes to my overall mindset is insane, but it's time for me to just let myself be. I am who I am and that is enough.
Speaker 1:I think a lot of my issues with being perceived stems from feeling sexualized at a young age. That shit just fucks you up. And even without that just the media and there's such an emphasis on women's bodies and what we're supposed to look like and if you don't look like that, then you just think you're ugly. But you're actually not at all. You're fucking beautiful and it's literally insane to compare yourself to people like that. I went through a phase of really over sexualizing myself and I think it's because that was the only time I was really given admiration or attention like that, like I felt wanted. That makes me so sad to think that I ever felt like that and I will always support girls doing whatever the fuck they want to do.
Speaker 1:But in my case, you know I was doing OnlyFans. I became a literal stripper for like a month. Okay, it was short lived, but still I cannot believe I even did that. I I cannot imagine doing that right now but it was for the plot. Okay, that was just character development. It's fine. I've always been a sweetie pie, but now I'm just a sweetie pie who can strut her shit in some six inch heels. Okay, but I got so depressed so fast Because that is just not me. I feel like that shit was a fever dream, a Figma of my imagination. I cannot believe God's real Guys. I'm actively sweating right now. I'm just thinking about it.
Speaker 1:But once the depression was so bad that I literally could not even brush my own hair, I thought, okay, maybe I cannot live this way, like something's got to change. I have to get my shit together. And I did sort of. I feel like I'm still getting my shit together, but that's just life. So then I went from, like I said, over-sexualizing myself To not wanting to be perceived in that way at all. That was too much for me. I did not like it.
Speaker 1:Wholesome era. We love her, we needed her. But now I'm trying to find balance. Okay, I am super soft and sweet, but I got a little fire in me too Don't put me out like that. And I am Starting to be okay again with people seeing that, because I'm coming to terms with it, and not even just that, but I'm feeling good about it. I Love that there are two sides to me existing simultaneously. And Because I love that, I know other people will too. Somebody has to appreciate my duality. I Could be your angel or your demon baby. What do you want? Don't let me get too carried away on here. Let's say our affirmations. Repeat after me I am strong, I Am kind, I Am loved. I Sent love Again. I am strong, I Am kind, I Am loved. I Sent love and One last time. I am strong, I Am kind, I Am loved. I Sent love. Have a great rest of your week and Be you unapologetically sending love.